Dream Girl

     "Now it's turn of our dream girl "  announced and everyone go crazy to listen to her.
      "Honorable principal, teachers and my dear friends. Revolution in the education is clearly visible......." She has started and everyone forgot everything.
      "Thank you so much.." she has ended and a huge round of claps didn't stop untill she left the stage.
     "She is a smart student and she will definitely become the state champion" students whispered in the ears of each other. Principal as well as her tutor and other participants were very much impressed by her performance and they became more hopeful for her.
      "Congratulations dear" she heard from back and found her tutor looked happy.
     "Thank you so much sir, it's your success not mine, if you didn't help me than I won't be able to achieve this." 

       She was participating in the zonal level competition.She looked so happy because her father also came with her to listen her performance.
      "Attention here, please, whoever get the first and second ranks are going to participate for the state competition and they will represent our eight districts. We are very hopeful for our stars to shine at the state competition. This function ends here and we wish all the best to our representatives."
      Ani looked very excited. People used to call her dream girl because she has big dreams and those dream used to change with time. She wanted to become a fashion designer when she was in 9th,when she was in 10th she wanted to become a doctor, in 11th she wanted to become a teacher and now she wants to become a motivational speaker. Because when she goes on the stage and give the speech  people thought that she has got blessed from some supernatural power because she never takes much time to remember her speech and her speech looks like written by her because she speaks with emotions.
    Next week at the  Mumbai she has competition. She looked very excited. Her dream to win state elocution competition going to be a real very soon. Her tutor also treated her in such a friendly way so it's became easy for her to understand the things easily. She didn't realize  that six days has been passed in the preparation and finally at the night she was going to leave for Mumbai. Ani belongs to political family so they have decided to stay at home of her grandpa's friend. But it was far away from her place of competition so they have decided to stay at some hotel.
    " Are you ok with me to live in one room ? The tutor has asked and both of them  nodded because they believed him like a father. Three of them have decided to live in one room - Ani, Kinjal and her tutor.
    " All the best Kinju " she has her essay competition on the first day while Ani has on second day. They did't realize how the time has been passed in going here and there for the topics of Ani's competition. Finally at the end of the day they got it. She didn't eat anything during the whole day.
     " Gulabjamunnnnn...." She saw that and took one and as she has opened her mouth her tutor catch her hand
     " you can't eat that "
     " But it's my favourite.."
    " Tomorrow you have competition and this will effect your voice "
    " Only one please.."
    " No means no"
    She has started  eating other things but suddenly she felt her stomachache goes unbearable and she couldn't bear that anymore. She ran to the room and fall down on the bed. Kinjal and her tutor has completed their dinner and Kinjal gave her pain killer.
     " You both sleep I am preparing your speech and as I will complete you read and recognise" her tutor gave smile and started his work.
     She fall a sleep soon and she needs that. She was in the center of the bed on one side Kinju slept and other side her tutor was writing her script.
    But in the middle of the night suddenly she wake up. She feels that someone try to kiss her and removing her t-shirt. She wake up. It was not scary dream but she saw the evil.
   " How could you do that to me sir? She pushed him back before he can do anything she run away in the garden. Kinjal was lost in her dreams and Ani was lost in sobs. No one was there to ask her. She broken down in sobs and that melted in the dark night.
    " Good morning mam ! One of the Hotel manager greeted her and she realised it's morning. She came to her room. She didn't find guilty on the face of that basterd.
    " Read your script, you are going to speak this today." He put it on the table. She took the bath and read it many times but she couldn't remember a single thing.
    " Are you all right Ani ? Kinju asked.
   " Yes I am..."
   " She is not looking allright because of her today's presentation and also tired" Before she complete her sentence her tutor interfer.
   " Yes, that's true. Bdw  Marry Christmas dear" Kinju hugs her cold body.
   She took the bath and got ready for the competition. She tried her best to not forget her speech but it seems like her mind was stuck. She met the other participants and as she listened them she felt that she would get the rank easily because there was no one who can compete with her.
    " Number four Ani Shetti " announced.
    " Here present honourable judges, and all my dear friends, According to Indian concept earth is mother earth, we consider such animal as vehicle of God, we worship environment as God....And......And.....Hmmmmm...................,.....And............................................................,..................................................................." Her mind was blank. She kept mum.
She found her tutor staring at her and the last night suddenly lightened in her mind. She left the stage and for everyone it's seemed like strange.
" Let's go back to home today only " Ani was cried.
    " But you want to see the Mumbai ...."
    " But now I want to go back " before kinju complete Ani interrupted.
     " Ohk, than we will go tonight " her tutor said and looked at her but she keeps her eyes on the ground.
     They came back to home and she cried a lot. Everyone think it's because of her competition.
    It was not only the one time but now tutor got the chance and he knew that she never said this to her family because he became good friend of her father. He used to come for dinner at her home. She remained silent. She put the smile on her lips which cried loudly from inside. He told her father to send her to his home for tuition and her father agreed.
     Everyday she was harrased by her tutor. She can't speak to anyone. She remained silent and that basterd has spoiled the childhood of sixteen years dreams.
    Many years have been passed but still she got scary dreams. And he lived like he has done nothing. He has destroyed the dream of dream girl.
   

The play -Breath

                                                            

       Samuel Bucket has written such a 30 second play named Breath. The play begins and the light moves focus from corner to the middle and again in the another corner. In the background there was some weird voice which was unclear. it was also match with the light the volume goes higher and mute.The play ends

         We have habit of finding meaning from nothing and we avoid meaningful matters  like nothing. The name of Play is breath. When the child took birth he take the breath and when the person die he took out the breath. So the whole life pass in breathing only. And what we make during the whole life is garbage.Just in 30 seconds he has created a wonderful idea. 

         Such a different theme and seems like an absurd play.

Continue..

'What type of girl you want?' Ani keep on asking him but he was missing somewhere else.

'I want a hot girl' Milan answered and disappeared in his home. Ani was just standing there and thinking what he has answered.She always feel that She is the crush of him.Anyway next week he is going to twenty two. She knows what to give him on his birthday.She has ordered and as usual it must be something which irritates him.

' Only four days and than it will be his bday ' she jumped in joy. She wake up and stares herself in the mirror. 'Anu tum late ho rhi ho' her mother enters her room with coffee and find her starring at mirror.

'Who is he?' her mother has started to tease her and sit on the bed.'ohh! C'mon mom it's not like that. Aap bhi na..before she complete her has started again.

' Tu muje mat sikha,i have also passed through your age. I know u must have your dream boy...'  she spoke n walk away.

'Am I really in love ?'
'No way,or vo bhi us ghochu k sath.. impossible'
'He is so cute and caring person and even very close to me ' she blushed
'What if he has someone else in his life? '
'Are, i know every single friend of him. He is only close to me so he is mine '
'If he reject my proposal than? And I am not that much deeply in love with him like - me tere bina nahi rahe sakti..mar jaugi..mit jaugi..bla..bla..bla'

She took bath and put on her favourite dress. Milan is very exited for his bday because all the friends used to celebrate birthday of everyone. Ani is early today so she don't find anyone in the class.

'Hiraaaaallllll....Biinnaaaaaa.....Parooooo....Kittuuuuuu....Deevvvv...Miluuuuu.....' she has shouted twice but no response.

To be continue..

E to bas Shuruat he, aage aage dekho hota he kya !

'Hey miss confuse' he has shouted so laud that the whole class heard that and sixty four eyes staring at her. Her face turn in to red because this is not first time. It's routine of Milan and Ani to shout and finally abuse each other.
'You rascal' she shouts back.

'yup, I am rascal. Do u  wanna say anything else   ?

'No..' before she spoke he pull her and hug her tightly.She pushes him back. 'Kamine tu jarur pitega..'before she complete he put his finger on her lips n whisper in her ears.

' Don't speak anything, else I know how to control you and you are very close to me now. Think of possibility'

' Your cheek and my hand are also very close. Think of possibilities.' he left her and both laughed loudly. They realise sixty four eyes are watching them. She moved towards first bench and he sat on last one.

'i am using Close-up ' he shouts

'i am using Babool ' 

Everyone laughs.

To The Lighthouse

                                         To The Lighthouse

                                                           

To the lighthouse is written by Virginia Woolf  who is very famous feminist writer in the history of literature. When the novel begin we find that they were talking about going to the Lighthouse but they were able to go there at the end of the novel The novel has been divided in to three parts. There are also huge time duration in between three parts. Mrs. stand for the lighthouse but there are some points which are also important to describe. Now rather than starting with the plot lets discuss the further reading points.

1)-To the Lighthouse become very famous novel because the writer has used technique which is known as Stream of consciousness. We always think more rather than action and it's always make everything more complicate rather than it is.

                                                     
2)-When we talk about her tribute she was still alive in the memory of everyone. She become successful in what she want - to be immortal. Everyone feels her emptiness . But when we saw her as critique we find she behave differently with boy and girl child. She was pampering boy child while scolding the girl.

3)- Even may be she has never tried to establish good relationship between father and children. at first we may see that she was bridge between father and children because the child was afraid of father. Father was more realistic and also wanted his children to be like him but Mrs. Ramsay has always come between them, May be she was good in the eyes of both but as she died there was no connection between father and child because that so called bridge was not there anymore. At the end when bridge has collapsed they come closer and understand each other without bridge. 

4)-We find the character of Lily and Mrs. Ramsay where both are totally different from each other. Lily may represent the Virginia Woolf because Lily have a vision like Woolf has. She was also been to well presented but is shows that as Lily was painting and not more dear to everyone same she suffers. With the help of her character she has tried to represent herself and prove that women can write,paint and they have their own vision.

5)-Mrs. Ramsay told the story of 'Fisherman's wife' in which his wife was more greedy and asking more and more from the fish. She is doing what she want in any cost. The character of Ramsay is also something like she was refusing to go to the lighthouse and putting many arguments. But here it was not her greed or her selfish purpose. And she used to tell this story to her children which is myth but she was not aware about harm of this myth. 

 

Blog on Eliot

Respected sir,
Here I have given my views regarding your questions.
1) I find that Nietzsche have idea of super human which believe in future and progressive for the solution of current problems.  While T.S. Eliot has gone to history to find the solution because history never dies its live in another form and repeat so we can find solution from the history.  He gave example of Upanishad,  Buddhism and Christianity. Here I am agree with both of them.
2) I think that both of them are right on their places. Fraud believe in the individual while Eliot think of salvation with the help of religion and also we find that fraud gave equal place to individual as Eliot give place to human being.
3) When we read the poem ' The Waste Land' we find such a reference of Upanishada, Buddhism which prove that he has read the Indian literature. He find the last and ultimate salvation in Indian philosophy.
He has described three - Da
- Datta
- Dayadhvam
- Damyata
The poem ends with -
         "Om Shanti Shanti Shanti"
this show that he believe that the answer of all the questions are lying in the Philosophy of India.
Thank you.

Film review of ' The Reluctant Fundamentalist'

    Few days ago in during the discussion of postcolonial study we got chance to watch the film 'The Reluctant Fundamentalist' which is directed by Meera Naire. The film is also known as " Dreams are lost in the melting pot"The film has very sensational theme. We find that everything is going good untill the attack on World Trade Centre. The protagonist was living happy life even we find that  a Pakistani person(protagonist) is living very happy life with his girl friend and very happy with his job. But just a one attack was enough to ruin his life.
   As a Pakistani white people have started to look at him like he is terrorist. When he was checked by police it was really insulting act for him. We find that he lost his job and Visa just because of being Pakistani. Every person feel proud to be a citizen of his country but he was insulted because of his national status.
   He come back to Pakistan. The people of his country have supported him. There is one dialogue,
       " When I was there I have American dreams         
        but now you will help me to create   
         Pakistani dreams "
    He has started to give education to the students and also he was very popular among the students. He knows the power of pen and he has done it. But again American come to his country to caught him where they find he was totally innocent.
    Black skin people are always being object of doubt for d white people. They used to treat them like slave and see them as a terrorist. The film has described that one left his all the happiness just because of his national status. It was really insulting point of seeing the way world and the poor countries.